Last week I did four night duties in a row. Not usually so bad, except my brain and body have had issues coming back to regular sleeping schedule since.. not matter what I have tried.
I suspect I'm in a bit of a hypo manic state perhaps? I go to sleep and without fail within 2-3 hours I'm wide awake, feeling fresh and feeling sleepy again is hours off. Around 5am I'll feel sleepy again but won't really sleep well after that. I recognise I need good quality sleep for optimal brain functioning and mental health purposes...
I tried to go to bed early tonight. I think I was sleep by about maybe 10pm? Wide awake just before 1am I think... a good improvement from the previous days by a long shot but now it feels like time sped up on me. How is it 2am??
I lay here contemplating what it would be if I were on no medication. I'm a mental health nurse so I like to think I'd survive but I'm not convinced I am arrogant enough to believe that. I've got some high stress points coming up over he next year or two which would actually "benefit" from the hypo manic states but those depressive states are what worry me and I'm not about to throw myself under the bus mental health wise.
I want to be strong and confident in all areas of life so I think maybe a medication review is definitely in order.
I'll talk to my doctor.
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